Two years since goodbye

I think of you when I look at my kids. I yearn to hear you laugh at the crazy things they do. I wish you’d stop by the house and take us out for lunch. I still feel I should leave an empty chair for you at their activities or birthdays. You were always a couple minutes late but prepared with your video camera. I wish you weren’t a memory to them. I wish you weren’t a story. … More Two years since goodbye

“Get back in the fight and keep moving forward.”

“Love u man. We will get through this. I will be calling and have some laughs along with the rough times.” No one writes a manual on how to live without your father.  The person who, regardless of how rough the time was, would know just what to say.  Someone described living in the absence … More “Get back in the fight and keep moving forward.”

Follow Me

I’ve found it difficult to write lately.  My writers block is a defense mechanism.  Shielding me from the feelings that stream through my fingertips as I write.  The new year.  The snow.  The cold.  They all paint a picture of a moment that is etched into my life, yet one I would so desperately like … More Follow Me

Thankful

Today, I’ve decided to be thankful. Thankful for the mess.  Thankful for the tantrums. Thankful for the things on my to-do list. This morning I woke up to the smiles of two little boys in jammie shirts and superhero underwear.  They requested Go-gurts and waffles for breakfast.  They sat on the couch, under blankets because, … More Thankful

I Wasn’t Ready

I wasn’t ready For you to be a memory A box filled with parts of you. I wasn’t ready For you to be a story Something only I can know. I wasn’t ready To feel the void of your presence For your voice to be a fleeting sound. I wasn’t ready To remember you. I … More I Wasn’t Ready